Making a list, And Checking it Thrice

Hello all you out there in blogger world!

Its MahoganyTene here, another day, another opportunity to better yourselves right? RIGHT!

So today, I'm writing about something I do every 6 months.  Every 6 months, I write a list of goals that I hope (and desperately need ) to accomplish over the next 6 months.  These goals can be personal, financial, health, or something I've been wanting to do for a while.  Is the list lentghly? Not really.  I try to put between 6-10 items on my list.  Do I accomplish everything on my goals list? Not all the time, but most of the time, I do accomplish most of my list.  I try to do it at the top, middle, and end of the year, so now I'm due to create my new list of goals. 

When setting goals, its important for them to be SMART:
S-Specific
M-Measurable
A-Attainable
R-Realistic
T-Time-bound

Another good thing to do is to put your list somewhere where you can see and look at them everyday.  My goals list is posted on my dreamboard (that's another post for another day).  I look at my goal list everyday, and it helps to keep me focused on what I wake up in the morning for, my purpose in life.  I hope my post has encouraged someone out there to make a list, and check it once, or thrice (three times)!

Get ta writing!
MahoganyTene

Confused: Which fork in the road do I choose?

Hey you all out there in Blogger land!

I hope you are all having a great summer so far! If not, get out and take a walk in the park or something (with water, stay hydrated now!).  It is also summer music festival season, those are always fun.  I'll be hitting the clifford brown jazz festival here in Wilmington. Its free.99! But anyways, thats not the purpose of this blog. I digress.

I'm at a fork in the road in my life right now. I'm confused as all hell! Why and what am I confused about? A lot of things. I'm confused about my career, life, and love.  This time last year, I was pretty focused and steadfast on what I wanted to do with my life. I was back in school, something I wanted to do for the past couple of years since getting my Bachelors Degree.  I'm trying to get back into school for nursing, so I've been researching and applying for different accelerated programs over the past few months.  They've all pretty much told me the same thing: oh, its uber competitive, there's a waiting list, you have a C in that class?! oh, nah, we can't take that! And as of lately, I've been feeling as sort of a failure. I'm usually the encourager of my friends, but lately, my skies have been a lil rainy and gray.

So right now, I'm trying to figure out whether I want to go back to school or do I just look for a better job.  Right now, I'm a substitute teacher, but with that salary, Im just existing, barely making it.  While I'm grateful and I like the job, I cannot go another year doing the same thing.  I have a house value worth of student loans that I need to pay back and a family member that co-signed that I havent talked to in years because I cant afford to pay for the loans right now.  So I have to do SOMETHING in these next few weeks to turn my situation around.

Also, I'm kinda sorta in a situation?! Well I guess I'm not really in one if I have to guess im in one right? lol. But anyways...when I met this person, I wasn't even looking for anyone.  I was uber focused on school and bettering my life.  I told myself that I wasn't going to deal with anyone where I am because I plan on getting the hell out of here as soon as the right opportunity presented itself.  But as fate would have it, here I am 7 months later, not knowing what exactly what we are, we barely talk, I only see them once a month, and they're the only person I'm dealing with romantically. I feel like I'm repeating past mistakes by not saying anything. I was always afraid of chasing guys away if I was vocal about what I wanted and expected, but a closed mouth don't get fed! But when we're together, he gives me mixed messages. And I'll have soo much to ask him and to say, but when we're together, I don't say anything because I don't want to ruin the moment. All I want to be is a good woman to a good man. That seems to be too much to ask for at times...

Well, I'm about to go take a walk around a labrynth, hopefully it will help me untangle the ropes in my mind and help me to figure out my path to happiness.  I'll update y'all soon!

Trying to walk the path less traveled
MahoganyTene

my ten year high school reunion: why its highly likely I'm not going

Yessss, that time in my life has come: the ten year high school reunion. A time when you get together with the people you went to high school with that were possibly your frienemies, and see how life has treated them so far. But now I wonder if high school reunions are even necessary with the invention of social media. I pretty much keep up with everyone I went to high school with on Facebook and other sites.
But high school for me was an awkward time. I wasn't popular, I was shy, kept to myself a lot, yet, I participated in the gospel choir and the pep squad (I can cut a rug or two!).
I was teased and bullied by girls that weren't secure in themselves, but were somehow upset that I was secure in myself. I couldn't wear or fit the latest styles, so I tried to figure out my own.
Dating?! what was that? Well, I did go out with that one guy in 10th grade that took me to his prom, but that was it. I wasn't approached by guys, and if any liked me they were too punk ass to approach me cuz of what their friends would say.
I did have some good memories of that time though. My safe haven was the library. I was in there everyday, and was a library aide for three years. Me and the librarian were really cool with each other, and she always gave ya girl first dibs on the new books ;-) . I also remember my child development and psychology classes, and the crazy ass teachers that taught them. I guess high school wasn't too bad after all.
But the night of my reunion, one of my favorite musicians ever MISS Lalah Hathaway will be in town for free 99; and I will be front and center to be entranced by her vocal spell. So those fools can kiss it!

Cheers to the class of 2003!
mahoganytene

The first post!

Hi all you out there in the world wide web! this is Mahoganytene coming to ya for the first time. I was trying to think of what kind of blog I was going to make this, but I have so many interests and thoughts, it would be wrong to rob you of all of them :-). Soo, I'll start by introducing myself:

About moi:
I'm in my late 20's (80's baby!)
I have a degree in health education (insert irony look here)
I currently reside in the second smallest state Dela-where
I love anything patterned with hearts and flowers
(its my 'thing')

my interests are (in no particular order):
music (listening to it is like breathing to me!)
fragrances
lingerie
Sex
food (obviously!)
creativity in any avenue
art
progression
love/happiness
ratchet TV
comedy
healthy living (I'm still trying to find my niche, and stick to it)
hair (natural and other types of styles)

Of course there are other things I'm interested in, but I'm sure you have a life, so I won't keep you long. just wanted to introduce you to the person behind the blog.
thanks for reading!
wishing you infinite love, happiness, and prosperity,
Mahoganytene